*of what I want*

Some of you know that I've been getting interested in photography. Technically, I've been interested since May of last year. We went on our little spectacular (haha) road trip to Colorado. The whole time I was looking for interesting things to take pics of. Well, none of them came out very well, so the interest went away. Then, back in the fall, my interest came back. Well, anyway, here's some pictures I took. Some are from the fall and some are from Christmas morning (the Christmas pictures are the ones I thought I couldn't post. In reality, I just had a brain fart and couldn't remember how to do it, lol. So they are a little late, but...). I'm told they're good, so I thought I would share and see what you all think.

We'll start with the Christmas Morning pictures. These are PRICELESS. I love how expressive she was Christmas morning. Such a hoot 3 year olds are.

hehe

Okay and these are my FAVORITES from the fall.

My mom just shared with me such a funny story, ahahaha.

My aunt said the other day that she wants to teach me how to drink diet pop. She seems to think that It would help me lose weight.

Now, this is funny for a couple reasons.

1. I AM losing weight. I've lost over 10 lbs just in the last two weeks, thank you very much.

and, 2., I don't DRINK pop ALL THE TIME. We don't have it in the house for a reason. I'm talking the regular stuff. You know, the decent stuff that doesn't leave a HORRID after taste in your mouth. Yeah, that stuff. I've cut it, mostly, out of my diet, but I still enjoy it from time to time. That's the best way to do things, don't ya know.

*facepalm*.

So, no thank you, I'm not going to drink a bunch of aspartame. If I want a coke, I'll have a coke.  And I'll still lose weight.

My aunt is freaking hilarious.

And though I can laugh this off... It still kinda pisses me off.

I'm sure you know what I mean.

Ah, well...

Just shared my story of how I met My husband on here... and some other stuff...

Meh.

*This is just a random update on life... and how my morning went*

First off all, I was rudely awakened this morning, and not even by my daughter, just my second child. You know, my husband?

ahahaha.

Okay, so...

He woke me up because he couldn't find his jeans. This is a pretty common occurrence in our house. And since I'm the girl, the wife, I magically know where everything is. And since I'm the only one who does laundry... I'm supposed to just magically know where everything is.   I asked him if he left his jeans on the cot, don't ask, because I packed a bunch of clothes that I thought were too big/small/weren't being worn, to be donated. So, I had to get up, go to the basement, get into the bag, find the jeans, show them to him and, sure enough, they were the ones he needed. After he claimed, of course, that he doesn't leave his jeans on the cot, that he puts his dirty clothes in the hamper. Should I mention the clothes he leaves on the floor? Nah...

And I won't even get into the fact that the man has more clothes than I do and I manage to make life work with, basically, only one pair of jeans. But that's okay...

So, Yay me. I'm super wife.

Then, for some reason he thinks im into making "deals".

ahahahahaha.

So, here's the deal. I have two magazine subscriptions that I need to re sub too. I was going to use birthday money, which I still have some, by the way. Go me! But, I don't have enough. So... He said that if I put the new vacuum cleaner together, he would do that for me. Not only do I get the subscriptions, I get to keep whatever money I do have, ahaha. Awesome deal. I can totally put the vacuum together. Shoot.

Love it. LOOOOOOOVEEEE it.

I'm glad people think I like to make deals. Works out well for me.

So, even though this morning was off to a rocky start, it's good now. I'm a happy girl!

So, I thought that I'd ask all you wonderful people where we should move too. You can explain why your neck of the woods is so great and why we would like it.

A little background info, for ya.

We're currently in Michigan. I was born and raised here, so I don't mind it. However, my hubster was born and raised and lived out west, for most of his life. He really doesn't like it. In fact, he hates it here, haha. He says it's too cold, but yet he's mentioned moving to Montana or Colorado.

He also would LOVE to live in New Mexico. I'm not a huge fan of that. But....

We've lived in Nevada, Las Vegas, to be exact, for a few years. He wouldn't mind moving back to Nevada, just not to Vegas. I don't agree, haha.

And, also, a few exceptions.

He said no to Texas. He thinks Texas is too big.  *lol*  I think Texas would be great. People from Texas seem so awesome!  *I'm open minded*

And 100% no to California. I ain't no Cali girl and earthquakes scare the crap out of me, so no thanks. *I'm not open minded*

Every other place is up for grabs. So what do you think?

My favorites would be, you know, Tennessee, Arizona, Colorado, Utah... But, I'm open minded. So, help me decide! haha

*And, no, we're really not considering moving at this time, just a thought process we've had for a while. Obviously, Michigan isn't where we're meant to put our roots down, so it's not like we'll be here forever. We will move, sometime. We would need, you know, money and all, so it'll have to wait. Just wanted to have some fun with this, so on with it! *

*In recent weeks, I've been listening to all my cd's. I used to love listening to music, but hadn't in quite some time. It's about as bad as reading old journals *sniff*. So, re-listening to them has brought up some... emotions. This song, in particular, reminded me of how I TRULY feel about a VERY GOOD XANGA FRIEND. This is dedicated to *said person*, lol. I'm not going to tag them. And, honestly, I was brought to tears by this... That's how serious I am. So, I don't know if *you'll* see this, but if *you* do, this is how I feel. *sniff* and *big, ginormous hugs that last forever**

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I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big

-My wish, Rascal Flatts

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*Forgive me for being  completely emotional and sappy, haha (but you know how I am ), but I just love you so much and only want the best for you! Now, excuse me while I go cry! lol*

*If you don't know why you're tagged, you'll see! teehee*

Yes... I know... It's dark. Boo. *and sorry if it's really boring, haha. I was nervous*

@mytwocentss

@againstthewind1

@traintrack

(This really struck me)

Our happiness should NOT be contingent on the people in our lives.

However, maybe you're like me and have struggled with that.

I'm currently really struggling with that.

I remember when I was in high school and felt really lonely. My history teacher, at the time, knew what I was going through, could relate in his own way and kinda took me under his wing, so to speak. I remember just feeling so low and hated how he had to go home, before I could even express myself, so I sat in his classroom, with his permission, and wrote out a big long note of how I was feeling. The next day, he found it on his desk and that night, after school was over, he had told me how reading it made him cry. That began an interesting "relationship", one that wasn't really even allowed. My point in sharing that was, from that day forth, I relied on him for my happiness.

Sounds crazy, right?

Yeah. It was.

If he was home sick, that was a bad day. If he had to leave early, it was a bad day. See, we got into this habit of chit chatting every day after school. Then his wife had her baby and he was out for a while, those were bad days for me. I missed the contact. I missed the connection. It was terrible. Then we had a student teacher come in and that SUCKED. I was so disappointed. You can imagine how I felt once school was out for the summer and, by the next year, being told that our "relationship" was "inappropriate".

So, I guess you could say that spiraled me into depressed thoughts. Because he was what made me happy. Having his attention, his time, his love was fulfilling and made me happy.

You could also say that I am, currently, very dependent on my husband for happiness, when that shouldn't even be the point. HE can't MAKE me happy. My happiness is a choice I need to make.

Someone told me, "People are like the wind". They come and go as they please. You can't keep people around forever.

It's SO true. SOOOOOO TRUE.

You know how many people have come and gone out of my life? Plenty and it hurts every time. I'm sure you can all relate.

My point really is that we can't be so concerned with other people making us happy. We have to CHOOSE to be happy, and when those awesome people in your life are around you, you can be even more overjoyed in the blessings God gives.

Sometimes it's hard for me to be just Okay with a relationship with Christ, because I wish it was a lot more physical. You know? Like, I know he's our heavenly father and he's always there for us, if we let him be, and sometimes I STILL want more from him. When I don't feel like I'm getting that, I turn to other people and people are like the wind. You can't rely on them, all the time.

Some of the things I need to do is find happiness in my own way. I need more hobbies, for example. I need to experience more things and I need to be more of the girl I want to be and less of the girl that I don't. Which is easier said than done. I find myself so caught up in stupid things, how other people are or aren't treating me that I let more important things go by the way side, sending me even lower than I want to be. Instead, I should be more focused on doing what's right, being the best person I can and relying more on God to carry me through and provide the true JOY only HE can bring. I have the choice to see it and accept it or not and that's a choice I have to make DAILY. It's a choice we all have to make DAILY.

It's not always an easy choice, but I've learned that most things that are worth anything in life, don't come easily.