For a while, I was on an anti depressant. I thought this was a good thing and, at first, I felt it was working…

But then it felt like it wasn’t… and then I went off of it cold turky, went through the withdrawl, which is hell…

and I was left worse off than I started?

LOL.

I’m wondering if maybe I should look for more natural ways to beat this…

Because I’m walking around in a fog. Like a zombie. I constantly think of what death would feel like and it starts to seem like a good idea. I literally walk around feeling like everything is hopeless. I can’t even imagine any type of change.

Well… this is just all wrong to me.

So not sure what to do about that, but just a thought I was having. Quite frankly, the waves of all the different emotions I have is driving me insane and I’m sooooo tired.

I apologize for my being a pessimist.