February 4, 2014

  • Trying to do the right thing…

    Shut up or talk.

    I think that’s what it boils down too.

    I think that talking helps, but then I’m wrong. I’m trying to figure out exactly what to do, which path to take and who not to rely on or trust (which is most everyone, at this point) and I don’t know what the hell I’m doing.

    :(

    This whole year… all of 2014…  I don’t think there’s been one day I haven’t cried. I don’t think there’s been one day that I’ve felt truly “happy”. I’m a mess. And the more I try to find someone to listen, the worse it gets.

    I feel like I should just shut the hell up and hide away in my hole, cut people out of my life. What are friends and family for? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I feel like my heart has been crushed a million times and it kills me.

    I serioulsy just hope to survive this. Cause i’m not sure i have it in me…

Comments (3)

  • You know what might help. Reaching out to a therapist. I felt isolated and couldn’t talk to my family. I was very lonely and I actually went to the E.R. I had some mental health days. I missed my kids but I needed it. I needed my family to see I needed a break and that they weren’t doing their job.

  • I’m not saying go to the E.R. but the therapists really helped me out a lot. Also having people to relate to helped as well.

  • I’m sad to hear of your situation. It can be hard to trust people, especially when you seem to continually get hurt in one way or another. Do try to hang in there. I don’t know if you’re like me, but winter is my worst time. Maybe soon we will find warmer and happier days. Strange, they say misery loves company, and I guess it’s true. Maybe there is some comfort in knowing that when we suffer, there are others who like we do, suffer in their own ways. So I think I’ll share that with you and tell you that I do hope knowing someone, and most likely many someones care and hope your days brighten. :)

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